No turning back...

I have decided to be the bigger fish in the pond and forsake the sea.. Is it a wise decision, that remains to be seen.

I am looking forward with excitement but yet worried about what may come. I constantly ask myself, was it the right decision? Will I regret?

I stand here at the brink of leaving a company which I have wanted for many years to be part of. From the day I graduated until that faithful call offering me the position. It was obviously too good to be true that a such a company would come knocking at my door.

Yet, there is this lingering feeling of doubt. Do I not trust myself and my own judgement or am I just afraid of an unknown. Well 10th September 2012 would be the moment of truth.

Wish me luck!

Communications??

I struggle to find the balance of communicating enough and communicating too much.. When is the line crossed?

Maybe I'm naive to think that I should be open about everything that goes on around me but then again I get reprimanded when I don't. I really wonder where is that fine line. Is it me or is it the other at fault? Perhaps it is me. *shrug*
It is a constant balancing act. Then again why should I apologise for being honest and up front?

I really don't know what is better. I used to think that honestly and openness is crucial but then I'm told it's also irritating. Haih.. It's a difficult juggle.

I just need to find my way...

Decisions...

I am once again plagued with a dilemma of decisions...

Should I go or should I stay? Plankton in the sea or Fish in a pond?

Is happiness rated more important than security? Is immediate tangibility more important than potential possibilities? I keep going round in circles on this. I struggle...

Decisions decisions....

Life! Here I am...

It's now MY time...

I have been to some places... Done some things.....

but it's now time to do it all, see it all and BE IT ALL!

You are welcome to join me in turning the pages of the next chapter.

Love,
Ai Chin